After months of mourning and not sure we would be able to or want to do this again we put our name back on the placement list. A few weeks later we received a call needing placement of infant cousins. We said yes. Yes I think we were slightly insane at the time. It sounded like it would be a short term thing and we figured how hard could 2 be. We soon found out. Baby L was very sensitive to noise and became very irritated if he was over stimulated. That did not work well in our very loud very busy family so after 2 months of him being very unhappy and our family feeling stressed we asked that he be placed with a family that would be a better fit for him. Luckily mom was very close to completing her reunification plan and 3 weeks later Baby L got to go home. Baby G was very independent at 4 months old he didn't seem to need anything except to be fed. This was nice with baby L being very needy but was also very worrisome. After 2 months with us there are no more worries...at least for now about the Independence. He is now very healthily attached and dependent on us. We thought Baby G would be going home within just a few months but the longer we have him the longer it looks like we will have him. Bio mom has stopped showing up to visits. The case worker and GAL say that there is NO family members able to take him, but we know all to well that that can change at any time. We have been asked if we are interested in adoption but are not ready to make that commitment yet. We haven't even discussed it as a couple or family. I just don't think we are ready to put our hearts back out there yet. Baby G is growing and developing very well. He is for the most part a very happy baby but sometimes he gets this very serious look and his eyes look so sad. Makes me wonder what happened to him in the first 4 months that would cause such a look.
